i get by from a little help from my friends

This week has came with many ups, downs, high points, very low points, and mostly confusing points. All i've done all week is try to keep myself busy and ask as many people to hang out as possible ,which has worked quite well. I've been busy every night and haven't been feeling so depressed lately. On the other hand getting motivated to eat, and not exercise is very hard. My thoughts have been extra racy lately since i went to a new therapist for a day yesterday, she didn't really seem to understand much and i think it shook more up talking about it then i would've liked. The anxiety at the scale was horrible i started to shake, then the lady couldn't even get it right and just about as she said it. I yelled "DON'T TELL ME MY WEIGHT'. At that moment i knew my eating disorder was talking, which at first i thought was the stupidest thing people would ever say. Oh, you have one side thats your eating disorder and the other ones you. I thought that was a bunch of crap, but yesterday i finally realized what i meant. I apologized for snapping and went on with my day, Kind of, i was grumpy all day and i felt like Ed was punishing me for being so stupid and telling on my secrets again. All i remembered that night was the talk i had with one of my closest friends about eating disorders, i kept it close to my heart and remembered it so i would get motivation. oh, and that i saw two of my best friends working at the mall today, i finally creeped long enough to see Morgan & Kara <3

I really don't think i could've got through this week without my friends, other then Ed because i'm sure i thought he was my only friend.

until next time...love, Kendra

fighting ED one day at a time: